Lauren intermittently woke up a couple of times last night, undecided about the best position to sleep.  Mars has to go for an overtime today and as he was leaving, I asked  him to take Lauren and let Nining take care of her as I catch some sleep.  That was the reason why I woke up around 10:30 a.m.  I woke up very hungry and decided to cook for some oats-one of the food they say that boots the serotonin level.  To make it a little palatable, I dashed some chocolate powder and sugar while cooking.  I hoped that Lauren will also eat some spoonfuls if she she sees me eating oats.  She only had a 1 bite the last time I asked Nining to feed her with that food.  Lauren ate with me but I think she still didn't like it but thanks to the diversion from watching YouTube in the computer, she managed to ate more than 1 spoonful.  She didn't notice the spoon reaching her lips.  Maybe out of habit, she just opened her mouth as the spoon is near her lips.  We finished the bowl of oats, drank some milk juice and continued watching video clips of animals and babies in the computer.  She was very quiet as she watched the theme song clips of her favorite TV shows.  She got tired afterwards and she was taken by Nining back to the room hoping to put her to sleep for her usual noon time naps.

So what's next for me?  Today is Friday, and a weekend.  I don't know what to do, what is it in store for me in my agenda.  Actually there's none.  I wish to cook later but still I'm wondering what to cook.  Mars called and he told me that he'll have to buy his lunch outside and eat at the laboratory pantry.  So again, what's in store for me today....I was website hopping when I encountered one very nice article about the topic "wanting to be loved".  I read that in order for one human being to be wanted and loved, one must be able to become lovable.  Most of the time, we are waiting for the right person to come into our life but most of the time we fail to become the right person ourselves.  All of us must be ready to fill in the space of becoming the right person before we should be looking for the right one.  Maybe the right man/girl is just also waiting for us.  So how should we be ready to become the right one for them?  In Sri Lanka, they have this saying that a a flower full of nectar doesn't have to beg from the honeybees to pollinate it.  The honeybees know which one has the sweetest nectar and once they find it, they will know how to take care of it and not to destroy it.  The article continued that we must first be flowers with nectars in order to attract the "honeybees".  These honeybees will know the flower which posses the sweet essence.  I quote this from the article: "For human beings, spirituality and love constitute the nectar of life, the sweet essence within".

I think a flower having a sweet nectar doesn't end with the honeybees' discovery of the flower.  While the flower is alive and capable, it must make its effort to continually produce the sweet essence. It must always be rekindled.